Bear with me.

HYPOCRISY. The most unlikeable and then again, the most inevitable issue. To me, of course, most irritating issue. I mean, if there's sth abt a person which seems really wrong to you, then you shoud just tell him or her. I'm not telling you to hold it against that person, at least let yourself be known. What's the point of just confining it all within yourself and build up your grudges against that person and still put on a fake smile to him/her. Omgoodness. I can't believe it. It's just so wrong and unhealthy to do it. Why, why can't ppl accept the fact that nobody, as in NOBODY is perfect!
Unhappiness is bound to emerge wherever you go. It's not meant to be hidden, but just meant to be shared; just like how you share your happiness. One has to learn to accpet and change, it's only for the better. But by confining your thoughtd abt a person within yourself, not only are you slef-restraining, but you're also not being of any help to that person's self-development. Yes, one NEEDS others for his'her own development, it's not a self- biult thing. A fake smile, a fake hello, a fake talk, a fake expression, a fake this and a fake that. When will you EVER reveal your true self. I mean, what's wrong with just facing it. It's really agitating.

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If being oblivious to my thoughts and feelings keeps us good, then, I'd still choose to be this way. Cuz, at the end of the day, it's not abt me. It's abt having you, your trueself next to me. I just miss the feeling so much. But I suppose, life still goes on. Ya, I still eat, sleep, pray and keep silent. No, it's not a protest from me, just keeping sth that has hurt me so much within me. Just give me time to dissolve it. That's all I ask for. To be back to normal, or at least, somewhere there.

'Amilo allineare'

That's all for now.

Love,
NisA